Another post in which the picture above has no relation to the content below. In actual fact, this image was reserved for another post I was to make but hey, I like hamburgers.
Before I get side-tracked, I must state my stance on this matter.
I’ve become disillusioned with the idea of falling in love with a woman and have no interest in pursuing any forms of relations with them for I see no great benefit from such efforts.
With that said and done, I believe I must now continue on with this post, elaborating on the topic itself, in efforts to flesh out my reasoning for it.
The cuter they are, the more malicious their intent.
I know some of you readers may interpret this as odd but ask any guy that has ever tried pursuing a “cute” girl and they’ll probably tell you the same. In all honesty, I have pursued so many of these type of women and as a jaded and bitter person, they are not worth the time in effort.
I have had my string of encounters with these sort of women and start to wonder if I am a morbid sadist that’s very keen on inflicting pain upon myself when placed in such scenarios. I’ve decided to remind myself of all the pointless and wasted times in life that have been spent on these miscreants that I should have not been bothered with.
Let’s start with my own psychology. I am naive. Yes, I am indeed truly naive when it comes to the matters of the heart. I am the sort of guy who still believes in old-fashioned values of chivalry, honor and respect. I also believed that even though one may not be the most presentable or “refined” in terms of presentation, one’s true heart will be enough to win her over.
Sad to say, as many of you will surely not find this surprising, these sort of qualities have no meaning in this world of ours. The more you behave in the above manner, the more likely it will be that you will not be able to win their heart.
Though many women wished they could find a man that were their Prince Charming or their Knight in Shining Amour, which makes me wonder as to the attraction of human beings towards shiny, glittering objects but that’s besides the point. The point here is, women dont even know what they want and just belch out the superlatives because they wished they could but know they cannot.
Reasons as to why they cant is simply because, these sort of men do not exist in their eyes. It would be like the equivalent of me saying that I wanted to marry someone like Nicole Kidman and the like. Those who do not meet the criteria are just crap and are those who should be toyed with emotionally.
Much like dangling a carrot in front of a donkey and cajoling it to try its best in getting it even though you know that the donkey has no chance in hell in getting it but is amused by its futile efforts.
I’ve met women like this before. I’ve seen how some of them ended up further down in life as well. Heck, I had feelings for them at one point as well, feelings that I did clearly state to them. So what happened to those whom I had known in bygone times?
From what I could see, many married because they felt that it was the right thing to do at the present time they were at. When I say right, it doesnt mean that they got married because they were madly in love with their spouses, no, no, no. On the contrary, they got married because they knew that if they did not, they would never again have the chance to do so as they got older.
I dont think I have to explain what I’ve said in the above but it is true, dont you think? In Japan, if a woman is not married by the age of 25, the odds of her being married drops to almost nil. The only solution for them would be either to marry a foreigner or just marry the nearest loser that they can get grubby their mitts on.
Ask any married couple if they truly did marry the one’s they truly love and I am sure that some of them would tell you that they wished that they were married to someone else but could not due to some “circumstances”.
I’ve seen this happen and can imagine the reasoning behind their interesting logic for marriage. I can assure you that I am not lying when I say this. I used to think I could fight such a possibility and not have it happen to me but then again, why fight something that doesnt exist, correct?
Rather than deal with all this nonsense, I have decided not to even consider such a thing, marriage, dating, having sexual affairs and what not. It just isnt worth it anymore to have my own beliefs and feelings stomped and crushed by these so-called “Princesses in life” that are too selfish or even too silly to make up their own damned mind in what they want.
There are also women who claim that they never want to get married. Heh, I know of one who did end up getting married even though she claimed she would not ever do so. I believe now that the women who say that they would never consider marriage are the one’s who are the desperate one’s.
They are the one’s who are the most confused and the most stubborn. They are the one’s who are in desperate need for a relationship but cannot commit to one because they are waiting for the most perfect relationship, which I am sad to say, doesnt exist at all.
I too have had this mentality myself and am probably going to be branded as a hypocrite but I have my own reasons as to why I do not want to pursue a relationship at this stage. I’ve spent too much of my life trying to meet the challenges posed by these women and have lost too much of myself in the process. I’ve become frustrated and angered by the reponses and behaviours I see from them.
Picture yourself smiling and trying to act your best as the object of your affection goes about flirting with every man in the room and totally puts you aside. It isnt as if you both dont know each other but she is doing this purposely just to smite you and to test your reactions to see how worthy you are. Even if you pass, she will probably think of another reason as to why she cannot commit to you. I am probably guessing that she wouldnt simply because you dont have nice hair or dont wear pink polo stripped shirts.
Women who test men like this should just, in all honesty, just fucking die.
In other words, I fucking hate women at this point. Though they are some whom I am very close to and am happily sharing my life with, those whom I try my best to share with and try to win their trust ultimately just disappoint me to no end.
To those women who understand and have experienced breaking countless of hearts just because you were so scared and worried about losing your virginity to some hagged looking perv, all I can say is, grow up.
Just fucking grow up already.
Not all men are looking for a quick lay or the glorious victory of stealing your chasity! Why do you all always end up with the men whom you just find superficially appealing and ignore the one’s who are truly making an effort in understanding you? Ignoring the one’s who are truly concerned with you as a person and not some kind of fuck trophy?
Have you women ever thought of that?
Are all women so keenly interested in good looks and nice hair only? Is this your criteria for choosing your suitable mate? Is this the sad reality of the world in which I inhabit?
Can you even imagine the pure illogicalness of that? It is equivalent to me saying that I am dating this girl simply because she has big boobs and a tight ass as well as the all important ‘good fuck’.
Isnt that illogical? Doesnt that just sounds so wrong?
Whatever happened in trying to truly know someone so deep and so true that everything else did not really matter? Does this only exist in fairy tales?
I pray not.
I pray not.
I pray that if it is true, I will truly commit to not get married anymore. I cannot accept this sort of reality and the idea of being with someone whom I know is not 100% faithful to me.
Those who fail to commit, are those who are doomed to fail.
Then again, I have not been interested in women in such a long time I start to wonder if I too have become a wee bit abnormal in this respect.
Oh yeah, another tid-bit about me that I am sure that all these women never even bothered to ask about me.
I too play a fucking musical instrument. I play the guitar, more specifically, I play classical and acoustic. Heck, I too actually had a band when I was younger. I too have made songs with my cheesy little band. I too was quite proficient with playing the drums at one point in my life. I too actually sang for the bloody songs I played with my band.
Does this make me look better in your book?
I guess not. Why? I am starting to wonder if it is because I am not fashionable or wear pink, as I’ve stated earlier or god forbid, do not have chicken hair.
Then again, I why should I even care at this point?
Easy, for the cuter they are, the more malicious their intent.
Maybe I should start categorizing these sorts of women and analyze their deficiencies. Who knows? Maybe I will then indeed find the answers I’ve been looking for and in hopes of not repeating these mistakes I have made so many times.
Another bit about me that I am sure many of you who know me well will find surprising. I too had been in love and in a relationship with someone at one point in my life. As short as it was, I find that I have had a lot more happier memories about her than all these other women whom I’ve met. She was honest with me and she truly did care about my well-being. It was quite an odd relationship but then again, after suffering for so long, it was indeed a remarkable experience to actually feel someone actually give a damn.
We both learnt a lot about one another and even though we had to part at one point, we remain true friends that I wouldnt trade for anything in this god forsaken world.
I miss her greatly but I know I cannot put my heart into truly spending my life with her. She understands this as well, seeing that we were both indeed from totally different worlds. The only thing that kept us together, from what I could gather now was just communication and just being there for one another.
As for who she is, I doubt anyone of you guys know her and trust me, you dont.
To be honest, I now feel kind of poignant and a wee bit amused here when I think about it…
I wonder why….
I guess that’s all for me to find out.
Anyhow, peace out folks and all the best to all your future endeavors! =P